We our in charge

It’s very seldom that people do really change. From liars or cheaters, to honesty or faithful women and men. From alcoholics or drugies, to sober, and clean people. Once you’re use to a way of life it becomes you. You become one with it. Once you’re use to a routine, a daily step, you do it without double thinking, or even feeling guilty.

 

 Very rarely are people worth a second chance. It’s not about the persuasive way they may convince you, or their beautiful big eyes and soft voice you can’t resist. The very few that deserve a second chance will prove it. From the time you wake up, until the minute you rest your eyes and dose off in your dreams, they will be working hard, through actions and signs, proving to you they are worth a second chance.

 

People do not understand how their group of friends, or humans in their life extremely impact who they are. There is a saying, “tell me who your friends are and I’ll tell you who you are”, I use to think it was utter bullshit. 

 

We humans have a big issue in our lives, a problem in our souls, an insecurity in ourselves, were we give the power to worthless people to either make us or break us. Since when should peoples emotions or feelings be controlled by a ruthless person, that isn’t worth a spec of their world.

Humans tend to place a single person in the midst of their planet and cherish the inconsiderate persons every word. We worship their every smile, and laugh, and put their needs way ahead of ours, when all they do is abuse our kindness and affection towards them. We resemble puppets in their eyes, do whatever they wish or command. We push our pain in a corner, where it dabs into our flesh, and reopens all of our wounds in the late nights when we lay awake. We lay awake pondering the misery we have trapped ourselves in.

We ponder the reasons of why we have no control over any of our emotions, feeling hopeless and alone. It’s shameful that we think we cannot put our happiness in our own hands. For we are the rulers of our thoughts, the commanders of our emotions, and the controllers of our feelings. We are completely capable of filtering out the negative, and twisting the hurtful into full positive encouragement in our daily lives. We may search our minds to locate what gives us joy and sets us at complete ease. All we have to do is be willing to let go and be brave enough to take hold of our lives. For we cannot blame anyone anymore but ourselves. We must be courageous and understanding of our own body and soul. Discovering what we desire, and what can regain us with hope, warmth, and new positive perspective of this chaotic, beautiful disaster of a life we’re trying to lead.

You can’t argue!

Something I absolutely can’t stand is when people are against equality in marriage. I don’t see the big issue in it, honestly. I mean, so what? So what if a male is in love with a male and they decide to get married? Or so what if a female is in love with a female and they decide to get married? HOW is their love life affecting you personally?

There are so many issues in the world that are actually affecting people personally, emotionally, and mentally, and you want to consintrate on gay marriage? Um .. no.

What I seriously hate, is when they relate it back to religion, and say they are againts same sex marriage because their religion says it’s wrong. Well, unless you are a priest, monk, nun, sheikh, or 100% religions, which everyone I have had this conversation with are none, then YOU CAN’T ARGUE.

You either smoke, drink, have sex before marriage, lie, steal or any of the other sins and think it’s ‘normal’ then you say gay marriage should not be legalized because it’s a sin, or haram in God’s religions. That argument will never stand with me, and you will loose respect for me.

If you agrue that you just feel uncomfortable about it, or because of health issues, or any other reason your brain can come up with, then sure I will respect that, that is your opinion, as long as you don’t bring religion into.

Same sex marriage isn’t killing people, or stopping people from living happily, so instead of you trying to hurt them, and make them feel left out, you should leave them alone. Don’t bother them and they won’t bother you. They are human as well, you know.

As I Lay Here

As I lay here,
As I lay here in bed and look beside me, I see you.
I stare at your face and your body,
Laying still beside me.
Your dark hair resting on the pillow, beautiful brown eyes looking right back at me.

I trace.
With the tip of my finger I trace the vanes on your arm.
Slowly, I just follow the lines and the dents.
The only thing heard in the silence is your heartbeat.
Your heartbeat, the beautiful melody to my ears, beating at the same rate as mine.

As you lay there still, and I stare at your body, stare at your face, I trace.
I trace my finger tips on your arm.
Slowly, my fingertips begin tracing the air and fall on the mattress.
I get a cold rush as you turn your eyes and suddenly you disappear.

Snapping back to my lonely reality I realize how foolish I am to dream.
To dream and imagine you right next to me.
For the lands and the oceans of this planet separate us.
They separate our bodies but never our hearts or thoughts.
For you are always in my heart, and in my thoughts.

Death

Loss, the hardest and the most destructive feeling encountered in life.
How do people react when someone informs them that a loved one has passed away? Nearly everyone has been through the shock, life changing and soul shaking moment, when they discover that a loved one has passed away. That moment when they feel like no air is reaching their lungs, because the information that a family member, a life partner, or a friend has just died is too powerful to accept. Knees become weak, head starts spinning, and neither words nor noises are able to leave the mouth. A blank expression covers the face, because thoughts are all over the place trying to accept the terrible news it has just received, the whole body freezes.
With all those physical reactions a person experiences, mentally and emotionally, they are about to break down at any minute. Tears begin to stream down their face, voice starts shaking with rejecting screams, and arms tremble while they are trying to hold onto something solid. At that moment, people realize that their world is officially falling down on them; or that is just how it feels like.

In the complete state of confusion a human is in after such strong, catastrophic information, they wonder and think deeply about what they could have possibly done to try and prevent this tragic incident; or how are they possibly ever going to move on in life without the deceased support, or words of wisdom. In those first hours of the tragic day, that is when a person begins to realize the importance and impact that loved one had in their life.

As the first couple of days and weeks pass, a person’s body feels weaker and more vulnerable. They do not have the strength to call the house or cell phone, because they know their loved one will not be the one to pick up, or that their loved ones voice will not be the one on the voice machine anymore.

Days begin to feel longer and sleepless nights keep reoccurring. A person’s energy is always drained, and their appetite for food or anything good in life has disappeared. They feel like nothing in their surroundings makes sense anymore, and that no one around them understands the despair they are in.
Depression and sadness take over the person’s emotions and nothing anyone says will make any difference in their situation. The person becomes in their own dark bubble, and they are the only one that can control what enters and exits that bubble of theirs.
When a person begins to feel like they have lost all hope and faith in life, without them noticing they will begin reminiscing on all the happy and funny moments they and the deceased one have shared. They start thinking of past conversations and outings that make them smile and it comforts their emotions. A person starts remembering past advice the loved one had shared with them and they being to realize all the hidden information between the words.

While those memories keep flowing in, a person’s faith becomes a little bit stronger, their smile gradually becomes brighter, and their happiness becomes a little bit more visible.
When a human accepts the fact of their loss and starts cherishing the past moments with that person they loved, that is the first step in moving forward. All the pain does not fully heal and go away. There will still be days were a person just cries their eyes out, but that is our nature. There will still be days where a person just wants to stay home, look at pictures and listen to music that reminds them of the deceased, but that does not mean they have lost all hope again.

You never really get over the loss of a loved one. As years and years pass the loved one will always be remembered on special occasions and special dates, but instead of them being a sad feeling that lingers in a person, the thought of them becomes the person’s daily motivation.
A better tomorrow will always come, you just have to want it; a happier moment will always arrive, you just have to accept it and brighter future is always possible, you just have to work for it.

Power of Words

Spoken words are as powerful of a weapon as anything man made. Some people do not understand the power of their words or the strength of their speech. As much as a couple of words put into a sentence may light up a persons world, a couple of words put in a sentence may also destroy a persons insides.

Words can numb a persons thoughts and actions. They can kill a persons motivation and devotion. Words, can scar a persons soul.

Be the type of person with words that help raise and strengthen someone, not the type of person with words that will haunt someone to death.

Midnight thinking

You can’t live your life afraid of what might happen; expecting the worst of every situation. You shouldn’t hold back from loving someone, or doing something that makes you happy just because it might not turn out the way you want it at the end. We live in a world that gives us absolutely no promises for the future. A world that’s cruel, selfish, but beautiful and magical at the same time.

We need to stay honest with ourselves and the people in our lives. Never hold grudges. Take your time to forgive as long as you do forgive before it’s too late. Complaining will get you nowhere. Not to a conclusion nor will it give you closure, so instead solve your problem, fix what’s broken, and clean the mess up.

The world we live in is so divers that we are surrounded by people with different demographics like nationalities, backgrounds, and religions, were a part of our happiness is controlled from accepting and respecting them. You do not need to agree with other peoples ways, but instead of trying to bash them down with your ideas, beliefs, and ways of life, accepting and respecting differences in humans will bring you peace of mind.

Do what puts a smile on your face, and helps you laugh louder. Follow your dreams and work hard to achieve your goals. Fall in love, experience new things, tell your friends what you really think of them, and most importantly be proud of the person you are today.

Things will not always go your way, and if you have my luck then things will barely ever go your way, but that’s the beauty of life. How boring would it be to always know what’s going to happen? Remember to stay positive, strong, thankful, and most importantly happy.

My Escape

My escape are the letters,
My escape are the letters of any keyborad.
My escape are the letters of any keyborad, because as soon as I get my fingers on them they start running.

As soon as I get my fingers on them they start running like they are being followed with sticks
As soon as I get my fingers on them they start running like they are being followed with sticks getting ready to be beaten down.

Getting ready to be beaten down because they should not be free,
Getting ready to be beaten down because they should not be free to write and express

They should not be free to write and express their emotions and thoughts,

They should not be free to write and express their emotions and thoughts, because they will be judged

They will be judged for how they feel, and how they think
They will be judged for how they feel, and how they think, because in this world we live in you are judged for being free,

In this world we live in you are judged for being free because there are suppose to be rules and limits,
In this world we live in you are judged for being free because there are suppose to be rules and limits that tell you how to think, that tell you how to feel.

Rules and limits that tell you how to think, that tell you how to feel because some people want order,
Rules and limits that tell you how to think, that tell you how to feel because some people want order so that the their traditions don’t fail,

So that their traditions don’t fail, and their faithes don’t get doubted
So that their traditions don’t fail, and their faithes don’t get doubted, so they can control the way people live.

So that they control the way people live, and the way people think.
So that they control the way people live, and the way people think, so they can run things their way. You know what I say to that?

You know what I say to that, I say no.
You know what I say to that, I say no, I say I will live the way I want,

I say I will live the way I want, I will think the way I want,
I say I will live the way I want, I will think the way I want, I will let my fingers run,

I will let my fingers run, and let my fingers express what I’m thinking and what I am feeling,
I will let my fingers run, and let my fingers express what I’m thinking and what I am feeling because my emotions and my thoughts,

Because my emotions and my thoughts don’t go by rules or limits,
Because my emotions and my thoughts don’t go by rules or limits because they are bigger,

They are bigger then me, they are bigger then you,
They are bigger then me, they are bigger then you, and they are bigger then any tradition or any belif, so that is why my escape,

That is why my escape are the letters of any keyborad,
That is why my escape are the letters of any keyborad, because as soon as I get my fingers on them they start running.

They start running, and expressing, and it makes me feel free,
They start running, and expressing, and it makes me feel free, more free then I can ever feel in my life.