Popping pills

Popping pills for the next five days is what I’m going to be doing thanks to my sickness.

After ignoring my fever, coughing, and weak body for four days, I woke up this morning and could not move. I was drowned in my own sweat even though it was cold outside and in my room. I guess that’s what I get for not taking care of my health and pushing my body in Zumba class.

The doctor I went to said I have a sever infection in my throat that is effecting my whole body. Also, she told me I needed to get a blood test done. She didn’t tell me why, I’m guessing she didn’t want to worry me if it turns out to be nothing, but I have to schedule an appointment next week for the blood test after I finish my medication.

The nerd in me of course wanted to go to my classes at college today but my parents insisted I stay at home and rest, so I feel very guilty for missing college. I’m sure I’m going to have a lot to catch up on because that’s how it is with accounting courses. You miss one hour, and it won’t be hard to catch up but I missed six hours today, so I have a busy couple of days to get back on track.

Other than my five types of medication, I am hoping all this tea with honey and soup will help me recover faster. I do not like not being able to move.


Lack of knowledge leads to Racism

Lack of knowledge actually leads to many negative things in life, but my main concern for this post is racism. Religion racism to be exact.

I am a Christian that was born and raised in a Qatar, a Muslim country. The amount of racism I got growing up was crazy. I remember ever since the age of 9 little girls my age and a bit older would come and ask when I will convert to Islam. I use to always tell them I would never change my religion and their response would always be “but then you will go to hell because only Muslims go to heaven”. As a child you could imagine how terrifying that was, but eventually I got use to it and learned to ignore it.

Some kids would not talk to me when they found out I was of a different faith which was so hurtful as a child. I remember walking around malls with my cross on and people would just stare like I was an alien. Even once I was in an elevator at a big mall with my older sister and this little boy, he couldn’t be over the age of 6, nudged his sister and said “look kufar”. He didn’t think we were Arab so he didn’t know we would understand what he said.

As I grew older I realized that in the Islamic classes of public schools in Qatar, many teachers would refer to Christians as ‘Kufar’ which basically means non-believers of God, and people that did not believe in God would go to hell.

Getting so much hate because of my religion made me a stronger person.

Growing up in a very non-religious household, I didn’t know much about Christianity. Actually, I knew a lot more about Islam than Christianity, so I decided to research about my religion and read the bible. I attended a few Sunday school classes around the 5th grade as well as the 9th grade but I didn’t stay for long. I preferred learning on my own.

Those little children that use to mistreat me or make me feel very uncomfortable about who I was ¬†because of my religion were actually the ignition to me learning about Christianity. I’m actually glad I had racism around me because if it wasn’t for them I would not have wanted to learn about Christianity. At the age of 21, I still do get slight racism, but mainly I get lots of questions about Christianity, and I love it because I can educate people about it. Not in a way were I would want someone to convert to Christianity, no, but in a way that would make people more understanding and more acceptable of what is different from them.

After all, Islam and Christianity and incredibly alike. We believe in so many similar things, and when more people start to understand that, the less racism there will be.

I don’t want to change the world, but if I can educate a person about something they know very little about, then I have accomplished a big thing in life.

The Tennis World

Tomorrow, the 26th of January, is the final for the Australian Tennis Open between Rafael Nadal and Stanislas Wawrinka. I honestly was surprised when Nadal beat Roger Federer. I wasn’t expecting that, but at the same time in the past few years Nadal has worked hard on himself. Even though I’m not ¬†a huge fan of his, I hope he wins tomorrow. I admire the way he plays and his dedication to the game. Wawrinka, is a great player too, of course. I mean he did make it this far, but this time I’m on Nadal’s side.

I gained a lot of respect for Nadal after watching him win the Qatar Open 2013. He was brilliant! In every game he played he never failed to amaze the crowd with his skills. He had a lot of tough competitors but he knocked them down one by one. Certainly wasn’t easy to do that. He really deserves number 1 in the tennis world.

(Picture: Nadal & I at the Qatar Tennis Open 2013)Image


I’m a very straight forward person. What’s in my heart rolls off my tongue, so it still amazes me when someone completely disregards what I have told them. When I say something is bothering me, an action they are in control of, I expect the person to get their act together and stop doing it. I don’t know why they still do it. I am very clear with what I say and I even give examples so they don’t misunderstand me, but it’s like it goes in through one ear, and out the other. I don’t like being mistreated, and I don’t like when people pretend what I say matters to them though they ignore it.

Some habits need to be changed, or else some people are going to be changed in my life.

Let yourself go

Let yourself go,
Free your soul,
Do something that excites you.

Take a break from your stress,
Step out of your mess,
Find a way for you to express.

Dance around,
Sing out loud,
Have a glass of wine or two.

Whatever it is,
Whatever you want,
Do it, let it revive you.

Get out of your grind,
Let your brain unwind,
Do something that chills out your state of mind.

Run a bubble bath at home,
Go to the salon,
Buy something new, and slip in on.

Whatever it is,
Whatever you want.
Do it, let it relax you.